556th post. should i just delete my blog ?

hello again. this time i walked like so freaking far from my hotel to find this cyber cafe which cost about rm15 per hour. cheaper then hotel lobby lar.

too bad no one's online wtf.

im wasting too much time thinking about you.

im missing you like crazy and i know you dont give two fucks about it.

so hong kong is cool. i love the weather here. shopping heaven etc.

will update with pictures when im back.

40hkd for 20 minutes wtf.

maybe Skyline R-35 is too fast. try Skyline R-34 maybe i can win.

wait, im driving a proton. -.-

so this is the most random shit you can ever do. going back to your high school on the first day of school.

look at the kiddies have to tahan perhimpunan aw. :P

and ex-sbu 08, remember this mamak ?

this is our perhimpunan place. every morning were here and then the futsal court. :) high school never ends :D

here's the latest news. you need to bring your passport everytime you visit Tk's room, or even his car. these two places belong to Korea now. you can get the Visa from my house. office hours only.

this is the moving Korea. its a Korean made car, Hyundai with fucking many Korean songs in it.

so can anyone get anymore lifeless than this ? going to mutiara damansara for..

1. One Utama.

riding this shit around One Utama

and having your first sushi zanmai there.

oh god.

2. Ikano Power Centre (Ikea)

then sleep

thats how lifeless i am.

ill be leaving to hong kong in 5 hours. damn i miss you. i know you dont give two fucks about me missing you or shit but yes, i do.

here's my end of 09 btw.

bought a new futsal shoe + nike shoelace ( oh fuck im broke )

that shoelace is some kind of charity thing i think.

for my football boots too :D

took a picture with pavilion's christmas tree

and made amy + alyshia take see raindeer balls

to realise that pavilion is not the only place that has animals with balls

made my own goddamn passport

played monopoly with faggots

trying to race with skyline r35 with my brenda ( lol )

to realise that all time low is about to burn my house down

adopted laura ( named by zhen pei )

to catch a MOS truck

and ended it with a bbq.

you know how fucked up my december was baby ? well its okay. my decembers are never okay.

here's my new year.

went to tokyo g for japanese food. ( formerly known as sushi groove )

those were the food there.

and to find out that v does not stands for vodka. v is for vitagen. fuck alcohol you think drinking alcohol is cool ? fuck you. vitagen boys rules

to go back to sbu and realise that things changed. im not a high school kid anymore i cant play so much anymore.

btw thats the building where i met Her in the morning and the tennis court which we turned to futsal court.

oh god dicipline room

and ofcourse, aunty chua, the aunty bunty that sells us bun when were always not in class

how i miss high school. not so desperate for a partner when you have all your friends around you.

look at zhen

thats what i have not been updating.

fucking taylor swift songs reminds me of how much she loves him.

2009 ?

so there was this guy he was single from the beginning of the year and bored as hell and the next thing he knew he could drive on his own. he is the type of guy who dosent like to be alone and loves having a partner to spend time with him. that is the only reason why he was with this girl during april fools and made a fool out of everyone when he fell in love with another girl.

at the same time his best friend was going for the same girl as him, a, but they dont know that he liked her for real, and all his best friend did was just flirting. he tries so hard to get her attention, to date her out and stuff but he gets no shit and his best friend got everything , maybe because he wasnt wealthy enough compared to his friend.

all he could do was just wait , wait for one day maybe she turn around to him and say hello because he did what he could. very obvious he was so fucked up about it and so now he really needs someone by his side that could listen to him and care for him.

now that he met this girl who is friends with a, who will listen and help him out with all his problems. she's b. she always spends time with him, going out with him, always texting him and also call him. maybe it was because she was too nice and b helped him moved on from a that he thinks he is now in love with b. he had all the reason to think and believed that b likes him too because she treats him way different from others.

he then tries to tell her he love her, but she rejected with the reason being is that the feeling wasnt there. everything else was so right except her feeling towards her. so now he's starting to think, what the fuck is wrong with him ?

now he's starting to calm down and maybe he thought he could stop falling in love again and hurt himself again for awhile but he forgot that he is the type of guy who will easily fall in love, with any stupid reason he will fall in love again. in people's eyes he is one hell of a player he keeps falling in love but what he really is just a guy who's easily falling in love and when he is with someone, he will be very proud of it and show the world that he loves her, no doubt about it he's done it many times.

then he starts taking this girl, c out for lunch to just be a companion because she's always alone at home. he knows himself that its stupid for him to develop feelings for a girl in a mall after eating waffles and throwing basketballs and eating durians together, but he's done it. then he starts offering to fetch her to tuition and back home because all he wanted to do then was just to see her more often.

he asked her once before what type of guy she likes, she said a guy who's not too good looking, maybe she feel insecure having a good looking boyfriend, a guy who knows how to handle her well and treats her nice, shes the king the guy will be the queen, not a smoker etc.

he starts to think that this girl is very rasional and he loves the way she thinks. he always makes people around him feel comfortable with him, that they can do anything they like and he tries to help them as far as he can when they needed help. maybe thats why people like hanging around with him.

this is one thing he did not realise, he's falling deeper and deeper for c without himself knowing, and so when he asked c who she likes, and because she feels comfortable telling him all her problems and secrets, she told him that she was in love with someone, but it wasnt him. thats when he realised he was so in love with her.

he thought maybe it was just infatuation or just another eye candy to her but no, she is really in love with the guy Z. he had to hold back his feelings and being a rational , and a guy who she's comfortable with and support her with Z.

everyone knows that everything has a limit. this went overboard when she tells him that shes really in love with z and he could not help but to tell her that he loves her. she gave him the same reason as B, no feeling. thats the fuck up part that the thing he couldnt change was the reason she didnt want to be with him.

whats even worst is that Z is a guy who smokes, and a guy who never really cares about her , well maybe he does but not as much as him, and Z is a god damn good looking guy. what happen to the guy she likes ? cant she see what she really want and what she really need is somewhere out there ?

he made a promise that he would give her the world make her feel number 1 and he guarantee that she will never find anyone else like himself. however she still does loves Z , and christmas he did the stupidest thing he could have done, at the same time the best thing for C and Z both. he opened up their minds and now they're about to be together and look whos alone now.

B found herself a new boyfriend from a hundred miles away, C is about to be Z's girlfriend and A has feelings for someone else.

most people thinks that he's fucked up that he still likes all A , B and C but who he really likes now is C.

it dosent matter anyway right ? all she wants is to be in his gallery of ex girlfriends instead of having a true love.

happy new year, leave 2009 behind.

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

first off, i care about your feelings thats why im doing this.

what else can a guy do besides trying to bring out the best for someone he likes ?

he is sincere, he does feel the same for you and the reason he didnt ask was because he thought you liked someone else.

he asked you because its finally clear to him now.

you dont feel good because you worry that ill fuck up

dont worry about me when im falling

ill get back up on my feet

but your chances to be with him dont always come.

think again, dont put me in this like how you didnt want me in this.

i will still support you somehow but if and only it was for the best of you.

alright finally an update. im sorry la for all the delays etc. working mah :(

so here's the things i did before working.

finding rm10 right infront of subway with pei yin :3

modern underwear -.-

then i started working.

this is where i work by the way. :D

and the fucking store room -.-

while working, these are the few things i do

picit black heads

tengok taxi drivers fighting

helping yong with his new rm4k pc

babi ! xfx motherboard !

and freaking rm500 graphic card

ini tengok porn mesti stim punya. :3

then ponteng work and eat at chili's

oh btw, i saw a burger for jen yen

JENG JENG !

this thai lady, shes freaking hot and she shop up to rm1.8k -.-

some asshole customer use our baju as tissue letak chewing gum -.-

makan nugget and strepsils for breakfast

emo depan fountain every break

take free coffee from starbucks on 17th December :P

and received my first birthday present. aww thanks anakS and mun kay :3

and then after work,

makan pan mee with jaja

pergi prom adik adik sbu kita

but seriously, good job 09 sbu guys. one buck short, joe fizzlow and ean from hitz.fm morning crew as emcee woosh.

things we do at prom.

butfucks

amazed by his mouth

and the last pic

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !